I don't have to worry about my family reading this so I am safe to "vent" here.
I was recently told that I was a hateful person and that I don't do anything for anyone. I find that so hard to believe. I mean, I have given up the 1st year of my marriage to be here. We pay for anything that is needed, we have NO alone time, I have no friends because I sit in this house. I do so much more than what I should be expected to do.
But I am so hateful. I guess I am. I am becoming angry that I have given up everything and am treated like crap. My family doesn't call and check on me, its all about Billy/Mom/Desiree. I don't care anymore. But you know if I was so hateful, then I guess I could move to be with my husband and leave everything behind. Yet, I am not that person. I am here to make sure Billy is taken care of. I am here because it would be more devastating to my son to take him away from his Popop at this time. I am here because I know it couldn't be done. David thinks I should leave. But it has everything to do with everyone else and nothing to do about me.
When I was told how hateful I am and that I hate everyone. I was told that EVERYONE sees how I treat people. How I am the one that makes things unbearable. I am the cause of all the problems and everyone sees that. Wow.. what a great thing to say, huh?
I have lost so much. My sister only calls when it is about her and then blames it on me when I say something about it. The rest of my family isn't here. I have lost almost all my friends, cause nobody wants to deal with what I have to deal with. But yet I don't do anything.
Can I be selfish and ask when will it be about me? When will someone step back and say Thanks for everything you have done. I guess never. It will always be about someone else..